I woke up with strength that I have left
I fell in the corridor
I grabbed the shower and started to wash my face
I was crying in the stream of water
Hate, Regret, Sinful, Lonely, desperate and depressed
.
she approached me with a warm heart
she put a cloth in my wet hair
she wiped my tears
she said everything will be fine
and she left before I can saw her
darkness covered her beautiful face
who are you? are you the one?
.
I woke up with strength that I have left
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tempat ini terlalu indah untuk dianggap sebuah tempat prostitusi.
image bahwa tempat prostitusi itu di tempat yang minim cahaya, bau pesing, kotor, di sudut jalanan yg orang enggan lewat, dan berbahaya, hilang dalam sekejap.
prostitusi menjadi sesuatu yang dibanggakan, di elu-elu kan, propaganda, turisme, dan aset kota, bahkan menjadi ciri khas kota.
seperti baju di etalase yang bisa kita pilih, beli dan pakai kapan saja asalkan kita punya uang.
seperti menara eiffel di Paris yang sengaja didatangi oleh turis dari berbagai negara.
seperti sebuah tur keliling venesia melihat bangunan cantik di pinggir kanal.
seperti sebuah majalah playboy gratis.
seperti sebuah lelucon besar yang tidak lucu!
seperti seks = minum kopi.
seperti sebuah manifestasi fantasi terbesar dari kaum adam.
seperti sebuah kemunafikan manusia ter-refleksi dalam satu gambar.
seperti sebuah destruksi (jika kita masih perlu) tabu, norma dan agama.
seperti sebuah keangkuhan manusia menentang Tuhannya.
seperti sebuah tanda akhir zaman?
is it true that we’re the ‘post-human’ generation?
that very dependable to invention of technology
that demands automobile as our time capsule
that rely on google to find out an answer
that needs mobile phone to meet up with your friend
that depends on laptop to arrange our daily life
and worship GPS to find a way to our mother’s house
aren’t we half-human half-technology?
A beautiful sunrise perform outside my window
and yet I faced the question:
“to choose to become a world-weary or a child in a faculty of wonder?”
“Wisest is he who knows he does not know” – Sophie’s world
do you think they’re interested in our buildings?
do you think that they’re paying attention to our new curtain wall system?
do you think they care about the beautiful stone cladding that we selected from Italy?
do you think they know that we spent 24 hours to fix the proportion?
no they’re not. they’re distracted.
face it
no matter how careful we’re, they’re still distracted.
we can’t get away…
a warm hug
a sincere smile
a simple chat
and an honest laugh
(even short)
make me alive
.
till we meet again
it takes me 25 minute by bike from house to school
let me take you for a tour
this is how I measure 6 kilometers…
start line. katendrechtse lagedijk. formerly the famous red light district in Rotterdam.
Maashaven tunnel. bike below the water. 20 min to go.
aha! Euromast and Het Park 15 min to go!
Fiuh! Boompjes promenade. 10 min more..
the Red Apple by KCAP. almost there 5 more min..
Voila.. finally arrive at Berlage Institute.. let me tie my bike and enter.. 
I hope you enjoy the ride
If we can polish everything to creates beauty
.
then beauty itself is meaningless
.
anyway, is beauty ever exist at the first place?
This is the place where passion alive
where existence manifest
where I (will) shaped myself
where I (will) made a stand
and where I kill a patron
.
‘Home’ never exist
It’s only place to sleep, cook and online for an hour or two
.
this is my (temporary) ‘Home’
the place that I call ‘life’
